Our guest arrived at 2:00 pm. She was a fellow student in graduate school. We talked about many topics of interest including gossip, complaints about classes, and the future. At her departure around midnight, she was still talking animatedly as she was when she first arrived. As she stood in the doorway as I tried to get her to go home, she finally paused in her speaking about herself and said, "how are you." That was the first question she'd asked me in her 10 hours in my presence. During her entire visit, she did nothing but talk about herself.
When Tito and I were pen pals, the thing which made the relationship so different was that he didn't just talk at me. He asked me questions and listened to my answers. I told him that one of the reasons my relationship with him was so fulfilling was that he interacted with me like a person he was interested in and everyone else treated me like "a listening box for humanity." I recognized this difference in the following greeting card:
Friday, January 31, 2020
Thursday, January 30, 2020
Typing, and a letter from June 26, 1987
The classroom was lined with desks covered in IBM "Selectric" typewriters. They were beige-colored, but dingy, especially around the bottom where the greasy palms of teenagers who were learning to type rested as they learned. Our teacher taught us how to feed in paper and correctly position our hands such that our left index fingers touched the "F" and our right the "J".
We'd then do exercises to try and teach our brains to hit keys without looking at the keyboard. S, S, S, S, A, A, A, A, D, D, D, D. Now, type the word "sad" over and over and over again until an unconscious connection is formed between your fingers and your brain.
Many of my classmates hated typing and saw no use in it. Our high school divided students into three "tracks." Those in the "secretarial" track learned to type with gusto. Those in the "college-bound" one grudgingly learned because they were warned that their future would include typing long, academic papers. The final group, the "trade" or "general" track members, pecked at the keys in a desultory fashion and waited for the waste of time to end.
No one could have imagined that, decades later, we'd all be spending a good portion of our lives in front of keyboards no matter what our careers ended up being. I was in the "college-found" track, but I embraced typing with more enthusiasm than anyone in the room. I loved the idea of getting words out faster than my hands could write them in cursive. My brain was always miles ahead of my hands and this helped them catch up just a little bit.
My mother picked up an ancient typewriter at a yard sale for a few dollars and I would practice at home by typing out what I thought were the lyrics of KISS songs. When the keys weren't jamming up or getting stuck, I was typing "I was vaccinated with a rip-torn needle because I'm hooked on rock-n-roll" from Peter Criss's solo album. I couldn't understand that he was singing "Beethovan" so I just made something up without concern for it making absolutely no sense. That was not unusual because I often didn't understand KISS's lyrics even when I could clearly understand the words. They spoke in so much innuendo that my naive 14-year-old mind couldn't comprehend.
I rarely typed Tito letters because I usually wrote to him at work and had to walk down to the basement office in the residential home and liberate the only typewriter in the office from the secretary's space. Dragging that heavy thing up to my office area was more effort than I generally wanted to go to, but I did bother on a few occasions. This letter (edited to remove some names, but otherwise intact) was the first one. Much older and more mature me cringes a little at how cavalier and snarky I was about my clients at the time. However, it was a hard job and I think many of us joked about the work because it was either that or cry. (As always, click on the small pictures to load a bigger version.)
We'd then do exercises to try and teach our brains to hit keys without looking at the keyboard. S, S, S, S, A, A, A, A, D, D, D, D. Now, type the word "sad" over and over and over again until an unconscious connection is formed between your fingers and your brain.
Many of my classmates hated typing and saw no use in it. Our high school divided students into three "tracks." Those in the "secretarial" track learned to type with gusto. Those in the "college-bound" one grudgingly learned because they were warned that their future would include typing long, academic papers. The final group, the "trade" or "general" track members, pecked at the keys in a desultory fashion and waited for the waste of time to end.
No one could have imagined that, decades later, we'd all be spending a good portion of our lives in front of keyboards no matter what our careers ended up being. I was in the "college-found" track, but I embraced typing with more enthusiasm than anyone in the room. I loved the idea of getting words out faster than my hands could write them in cursive. My brain was always miles ahead of my hands and this helped them catch up just a little bit.
My mother picked up an ancient typewriter at a yard sale for a few dollars and I would practice at home by typing out what I thought were the lyrics of KISS songs. When the keys weren't jamming up or getting stuck, I was typing "I was vaccinated with a rip-torn needle because I'm hooked on rock-n-roll" from Peter Criss's solo album. I couldn't understand that he was singing "Beethovan" so I just made something up without concern for it making absolutely no sense. That was not unusual because I often didn't understand KISS's lyrics even when I could clearly understand the words. They spoke in so much innuendo that my naive 14-year-old mind couldn't comprehend.
I rarely typed Tito letters because I usually wrote to him at work and had to walk down to the basement office in the residential home and liberate the only typewriter in the office from the secretary's space. Dragging that heavy thing up to my office area was more effort than I generally wanted to go to, but I did bother on a few occasions. This letter (edited to remove some names, but otherwise intact) was the first one. Much older and more mature me cringes a little at how cavalier and snarky I was about my clients at the time. However, it was a hard job and I think many of us joked about the work because it was either that or cry. (As always, click on the small pictures to load a bigger version.)
Wednesday, January 29, 2020
Dina, and, a May 21, 1987 greeting card
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Dina was one of my three pen pals from Alabama. She was 5' 6" tall and slender with huge eyes and long eyelashes. Her lashes may have been augmented by Max Factor, but there was no denying that she was the prettiest girl in our entire network of correspondents. She dreamed of being a model and once sent me a set of professional black and white pictures of her posing in various ways. One of them showed her full body profile with her posterior to the camera and her twisting around to smile for the camera. She had a great figure, though was probably too short to be anything other than a catalog model.
Her beauty likely informed her personality difference among those in our network. She was confident, strident, and outgoing. Most of the other women I corresponded with were fat, unattractive, or socially incompetent. Some were all of these things. Dina was definitely the most popular of us with men. She had more boyfriends than all of the rest of us combined.
Despite being pretty and popular, Dina was warm and kind to her fat friends. This wasn't my usual experience as most people dismissed me or treated me as unworthy of attention if they knew my weight. Dina was also different in that she paid attention to what I said and liked. Most people gave me gifts that they wanted to receive rather than thinking about who I was and what I liked.
In my early college years, I took an art history class. This was when I was an "undecided" major and flirting with several options including art, math, chemistry, and psychology. I didn't end up studying art, which was probably wise considering the lack of career options though I doubt psychology was a vastly more profitable option in the long run, but I did find that I liked impressionist painters.
Dina took note of this and sent me a box of greeting cards with four impressionist paintings on the front for my birthday around 1985. I was delighted with the glossy printing and blank interior. When I wanted to send a pen pal a special note, I used one of these cards.
The first card I ever sent Tito was on one of these cards. I've since learned the proper use of "literally," and, since I'm clearly still alive, it's obvious that I was incorrect in my wording.
Tuesday, January 28, 2020
My Book is Live on Amazon
I've completed the softcover version of my book and it is now for sale on Amazon. If you're interested, you can buy it here .
I'm still feeling my way through the author's interface as well as working on the Kindle version (which requires a completely different format with different tools). I haven't figured out how to do a "look inside" or to include other pictures, but the full cover is here:
I'm still feeling my way through the author's interface as well as working on the Kindle version (which requires a completely different format with different tools). I haven't figured out how to do a "look inside" or to include other pictures, but the full cover is here:
Wednesday, January 8, 2020
I Wrote a Book
I wrote a book about a very unique time in my life when I was in a long-distance relationship. It will be self-published on Amazon as soon as I put a few finishing touches on it and will be linked to at that time in case anyone who stumbles on this wants to get the full story.The story is true with no elements of fiction aside from my changing of names to protect the innocent.
Since memory is faulty, and my story takes place over 30 years ago. I wanted to be certain that there was as little drift as possible between the facts and the cobwebby recollections that I might have. Fortunately, long distance relationships back in the late 80's required a lot of material exchange and I have a generous and detailed historical record.
The tub on the left is full of cassette tapes that are a double layer deep. There are nearly a hundred of them. My long-distance partner and I exchanged both "talk tapes" as well as copious numbers of letters, postcards, and greeting cards (in the tubs on the right and center). I also kept two photo albums full of material. I'm pretty sure this is enough to keep my story straight with the reality of my youth.
This blog as well as a Facebook Page and Instagram page are supplemental materials to the book I've written. I'm going to show or talk about the materials pictured here over time to add color and detail to a story that needed to be greatly compressed in order to fit into about 270 pages. I hope you enjoy sharing my memories.
Since memory is faulty, and my story takes place over 30 years ago. I wanted to be certain that there was as little drift as possible between the facts and the cobwebby recollections that I might have. Fortunately, long distance relationships back in the late 80's required a lot of material exchange and I have a generous and detailed historical record.
The tub on the left is full of cassette tapes that are a double layer deep. There are nearly a hundred of them. My long-distance partner and I exchanged both "talk tapes" as well as copious numbers of letters, postcards, and greeting cards (in the tubs on the right and center). I also kept two photo albums full of material. I'm pretty sure this is enough to keep my story straight with the reality of my youth.
This blog as well as a Facebook Page and Instagram page are supplemental materials to the book I've written. I'm going to show or talk about the materials pictured here over time to add color and detail to a story that needed to be greatly compressed in order to fit into about 270 pages. I hope you enjoy sharing my memories.
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